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| *this song is making me cry*
"First Day Of My Life" by Bright Eyes
This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
Their spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Then waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me
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| *~HUGE QUIZ*~
001. What is your name? Steph
002. Spell your name backwards: hpets
003. Date of birth: 3-9-87
004. Male or female? female
005. Astrological sign: pisces
006. Nicknames: step
007. Occupation? student
008. Height: 5'3"
009. Weight: dont know
010. Hair color: brown
011. Eye color: hazel
012. Where were you born? brooklyn
013. Where do you reside now? brooklyn
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names: MyMomIsStalin
016. E-mail addy: goldamew@meowmail.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? my hatred towards my mom
018. What is your lj name? KaySaysImAMan34
019. What does your lj name stand for? kay made it up
020. Pets: i used to have cats :(
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? i didnt have a cake
022. Piercings? 4
023. Tattoo's? 3
024. Shoe size: 10.5
025. Righty or lefty? lefty
026. Wearing: shorts and a tshirt
027. Hearing: watching catch me if you can
028. Feeling: sad
029. Eating/drinking: tacos
~Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? yeah
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? 3
063. How many people have you been in love with? 2, maybe 3, im not sure
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? no
116. Are your parents divorced? yes
117. Do you have step parents? no
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? not that i know of
119. If so for what? they didn't get along?
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? yup
~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? the ataris "broken promise ring" (look up the lyrics)
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? 50 cent
123. What's the best cd you own? the ataris "end is forever"
124. What song do you absolutely hate? "caroline" by outcast
125. Do you sing in the shower? when nobody is home
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? the ataris "your boyfriend sucks"
~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink:
128. Aerosmith:
129. Madonna:
130. Korn:
131. Backstreet Boys:
132. The Beatles:
133. Sublime:
134. J.Lo:
135. *Nsync:
136. Limp Bizkit:
137. Britney Spears:
138. Creed:
139. Enrique Iglesias:
140. Good Charlotte:
141. Christina Aguilera:
142. Eminem:
143. New Found Glory:
144. Kelly Clarkston:
145. Kelly Osbourne:
146. Mandy Moore:
147. Eve:
148. Aaliyah:
149. Nelly:
150. Alicia Keys:
151. Incubus:
~Favorites~
152. Color: green
153. Food: tacos
154. Song: the ataris "looking back on today"
155. Show: degrassi
156. school subject: math
157. Band/singer: the ataris
158. Animal: penguin
159. Outfit: shorts and sleaveless tshirt
160. Radio station: dont listen to the radio
161. Movie: the princess bride
162. Pair of shoes: vans
163. Cartoon: rugrats
164. Actor: not sure
165. Actress: kristen dunst and eliza dushku
166. Potato chip: bbq baked lays
167. Drink: mountain dew and iced tea
168. Alcholic drink: bacardi 151
169. Holiday: valentines day (one day ill get a valentine)
170. Perfume/cologne: dont wear that stuff
171. Pizza topping: mushrooms
172. Jello flavor: strawberry
173. Lunch meat: turkey
174. Board game: monopoly
175. Video game: grand theft auto and spiro
176. Website: xanga i guess
177. Book: riptide by catherine coulter
178. Computer game: lego island
179. Number: 34
180. Cereal: frosted flakes
181. Comedian: i hate comedy
182. Dessert: banana splits
183. Disney character: baby pluto
184. Clothing store: pac sun
185. Pastime: dont know
186. Teacher: mr matucci
187. Childhood toy: my teddy bear
188. Carnival game/ride: bumper cars
189. Candy bar: midnight milkyway
190. Magazine: alternative press and ride bmx
191. Salad dressing: french
192. Thing to do on the weekend: bike and go to the beach
193. Hot drink: coffee
194. Season: summer
195. Sport to watch: bmx
196. Person to talk to online: liz
~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? green and white checkers
198. What color are your bedroom walls? neon green
199. Do you have posters on your wall? yeah
200. If so of what? brody dalle, conor oberst, degrassi people, the ataris, dashboard confessional, dave mirra, etc
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yeah
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 1
203. What do you normally sleep in? pj pants and a tshirt
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: plaid blue pj pants and tommy hilfiger shirt
205. What size bed do you have? twin
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? captains bed
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? sometimes if im thinking too much
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: i was with someone im in love with and then this guy comes up and takes her away
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? a teddy bear
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? a lot of people
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? i sleep curled up in a ball
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? my brother doesnt live with me
214. Do you snore? when im sick
215. How about drool? when i have a "good" dream, lol
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? yeah
217. What color is the carpet in your room? green(astro turf)
218. What's under your bed? my journal
~This or that~
219. beach/mountains: beach
220. Donuts/bagels: bagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: east
223. Heaven/hell: hell
224. Make love/have sex: have sex
225. Coffee/tea: coffee
228. Britney/Christina: christina
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american
230. Real World/Road Rules: real world
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: bsb
232. Silver/gold: silver
233. Nike/Adidas:adidas
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: mcdonalds
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: emo
237. Hot/cold: hot
238. Winter/summer: summer
239. Spring/fall: fall
240. Operas/plays: plays
241. Read/watch tv: tv
242. Cd's/tapes: cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: dvds
244. Old/new: new
245. Shorts/skirts: shorts
246. Pink/red: red
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: colored
248. Meat/vegetables: veggies
249. Mexican food/chinese food: mexican
250. Commercials/infomercials: commertials
251. Scary movies/comedies: scary movies
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: to wear, one piece, to see on other people, bikinis
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: tennis shoes
254. Dogs/cats: cats
255. Unicorns/fairies: faries
256. Water/land: water
257. Sugar/spice: sugar
258. Black/white: black
259. ribbons/bows: ribbons
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored
262. Cars/trucks: cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: austin powers
264. Popcorn/pretzels: popcorn
265. Hip/hop: hop
266. Passionate kiss/peck: passionate kiss
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: real wrestling
268. Back rub/foot massage: back rub, my feet are too ticklish
269. Picture frames/photo albums: photo albums
270. Pens/pencils: pens
~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: ok
272. Virgins: amazing will power
273. God: dont believe in god
274. The Osbournes: annoying
275. Reality TV: stupid
276. J.Lo: good at acting, bad at singing
277. Religion: dont care about it
278. Emo music: love it
279. Valentine's Day: someday ill get a valentine...
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: what comeback?
281. Homosexuals: they rule
282. Abortion: im not sure
283. Inter-racial relationships: cool
284. Murder: depends
285. Death: depends
286. Obesity: normal
287. Pre-marital sex: cool
288. Terrorism: bad
289. Pornography: good
290. Fortune tellers: waste of money
291. Threesomes: cool
292. Prostitution: good for people that cant get any
293. Politics: annoying to discuss after a while
294. Country music: gives me a headache
295. George W. Bush: cool
296. Cloning: stupid
297. Britney's boobs: dont know
298. Gas prices in America: too high
~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: will and grace
300. Tiffany: tiffany and co
301. Ben: goth
302. Maria: blonde
303. Jennifer: couches
304. Nicole: french
305. Amy: my mom
306. Adam: shoe theif
307. Richard: ex bf
308. Justin: football
309. Arnold: hey arnold
310. Tom: blink 182
311. Melissa: art
312. Charlotte: sex and the city
313. Harold: dont know
314. John: common name
315. Joel: good charlotte
316. Vanessa: sing
317. Michelle: branch
318. Kevin: cosner
319. Brent: hockey
320. Jake: epstein (degrassi)
321. Billy: talent
322. Sarah: queens
323. Natalie: kingd highway
324. Christi: even stevens
325. Nick: hood nick
326. Linda: tripp
327. Taylor: hanson
328. Jordan: metrosexual
329. Jamie: bitch
330. Adrian: dont know
~Have You Ever....~
331. Mooned anyone? no
332. Been on a diet? yeah
333. Been to a foreign country? canada
334. Broken a bone? lots
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Swear at a teacher? do assistant principals count?
337. Talked to a lj member via e-mails or instant messages? yeah
338. Got in a fight? yeah
339. Dated a teacher? no
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? no
341. Thought about killing your enemy? yeah
342. Gone skinny dipping? yeah
343. Met another lj member in the flesh? yeah
344. Told a little white lie? probably
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? yeah
346. Stolen anything? pokemon cards, lol
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? probably
348. Been on TV? in a bike marathon
349. Been on the radio? no
350. Been in a mosh pit? yeah
351. Been to a concert? yeah
352. Dated one of your best friends? yeah
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yeah
354. Decieved somebody close to you? no
355. Broken the law? yeah
356. Been to a rodeo? no
357. Been on a talk show? no
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yeah
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? yeah
361. Came close to dying? i dont think so
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? no
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yeah, and i tripped over a cell phone and fell too
364. Terrorized a babysitter? those were the days
365. Made a mud pie? .no
366. Had a dream that our falling off a cliff? no
367. Snuck out of the house at night? no
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? yeah
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yeah
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yeah
372. Smoked? yeah
373. Done drugs? yeah
374. Been arrested? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? day camp
377. Won a bet? yeah
378. Written a love letter? yeah
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? yeah
380. Written a love poem? yeah
381. Kissed in the rain? yeah, this summer
382. Slow danced with someone you love? yeah
383. Participated in cyber sex? lmao
384. Faked an orgasm? no
385. Stolen a kiss? i dont understand
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yeah
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? yeah
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? yeah
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? no
392. Won a trophy? yeah, lots
393. Thrown up in public? yeah
394. Bowled a perfect game? no
395. Failed/got held back? yeah
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? no
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? no
398. Taken ballet lessons? yeah
399. Attempted suicide? yeah
400. Cut yourself? no
~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? yeah
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? no
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? no
404. Did you play Simon? no
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? no
406. Did you wet the bed? no
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? no
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? yeah
409. Were you shy? yeah and i still am
410. Were you spoiled? yeah
411. Were you abused? on occasion
412. Did you go to the circus? yeah
413. Did you go to the zoo? yeah
414. Were you in a car accident? at 14 i was in one
415. Did you build snowmen? yeah
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? no
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? im the oldest
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? no
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? no
420. Were you afraid of the dark? no
421. Did you have slumber parties? yeah
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? no
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? no
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? no
~Randomness~
425. Do you believe in aliens? no
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: cd player, remote, water bottle
427. Do you have any hidden talents? yeah and you gotta find out for yourself
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? only if they are rock videos
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? horror
430. What would your movie star name be? i dont know
431. Do you play any sports?
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? night of the living dead when i was a little kid
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? not sure
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? the grudge
435. Do you drive? once
436. What is your dream car? a motorcycle
437. Do you think your good looking? no
438. Do others think you are good looking? i guess .
439. Would you ever sky dive? maybe
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? i used to have a club about bigfoot
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 6
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? yeah
443. Do you believe in God? no
444. Do you believe in Satan? no
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? no
446. Do you believe there is a hell? no
447. Do you own a pooltable? no
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? yeah
450. Do you like chocolate? yeah
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar? the each
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? 11
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? yeah
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? avril lagvine, nobody recognized me
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? no
456. What is your weakness? my heart
457. Name something you can't get enough of: getting my heart broken
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: i dont know
459. How many kids do you want to have? 2
460. Future daughters names: meredith
461. Future sons names: kyle
462. What is your ideal way to die? drowning or shotting myself in the heart
463. How do you release stress? bike or pierce myself
464. Are you a trendy person? no
465. Are you an artisitic person? not really
466. Are you a realistic person? no
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? only if im wearing converse
468. Are you a strong person? Physically? no emotionally? phsically yes, emotionally no
469. Are you a strong willed person? not sure
70. Who is the last person to e-mail you? steve
471. Who is the last person to IM you? a random person i dont know
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? yeah
473. Are you a deep sleeper? yeah
474.areyou a good story teller? i guess
475. What do you believe is your best quality? caring
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? nothing
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles rock
478. Do you do yoga? no
479. Do you have your own credit card? no
480. Let's say you win the lotto.
481. Do you have a check book? yeah
482. Do you like your driver? yeah
483. Do you tan easily? yup
484. What color is your hair naturally? brown
485. How many fillings do you have? 1
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? 1
487. Worst feeling in the world? being alone
488. Best feeling in the world? being in love
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? empty
490. Last thing you downloaded? tabit
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? no
492. What do you think people think of you? that im emo
493. Are you a likeable person? yeah
494. Do you need therapy? yeah
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to be proposed to? on the beach on a clear summer night
497. What kind of movie would you star in? horror
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? lol, no
499. When are you moving? probably park slope
500. What's your favorite phrase? the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need | | |
| but giving up on you
is something i could never do | | |
| and ambition i've found
can lead only to failure.
its never going to happen.
i give up. | | |
| ive lost it once again. i cut half my classes today. and of course for a stupid reason. i hate liking people and falling in love. its fun while it lasts, but its the worst thing ever when its gone.
out of all the things i forget, why can't i forget you?
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